I really cannot wait to go back to freaking college. It seems no matter what I say, even if its I heard, or hold on. My sister and mother say i'm being bitchy or have an attitude. I'm really sick of this. I hate being home for more then two weeks so this three months I really just want to kill someone. I REALLY WANT TO! god what is the problem with my dysfunctional fucking family! They have this new adopted family member. A neighbors kid and she is always over here. And though she says dumb shit all the time, and I was joking aorund because she laughed and pointed at me. I said shut up. Nad I got ripped a new asshole for it. And then when I went to check my email my sister said I was being bitchy...fuck her.
Hopefully everyone reading this gets the law on Inertia? An object in motion stays in Motion and an object at rest ETC. Well going along with my last entry (which I deleted) IF I STAY THINKING ABOUT WHAT I LEFT BEHIND I WILL GET NO WHERE! SINCE I DON'T WANT TO BE THE ONLY PERSON TRYING TO KEEP IN TOUCH! SO TO THOSE WHO THINK EVERYTHING I WRITE IS A FUCKING PITY PARTY, BITE ME!
I DON'T CARE IF YOU WERE OFFENDED, I DON'T CARE IF I'M A PESSIMIST, THAT I ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BAD SIDE. BUT LIFE ISN'T ALL DEW DROPS AND CANDY. UNLIKE MOST PEOPLE I'VE HAD SOME SERIOUS REALITY CHECKS LATELY.
SINCE I DON'T NEED ANYONE TO GET THROUGH TO ME, YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE UPFRONT. BECAUSE I KNOW THE FACTS AND I DON'T CARE.
YOU. AREN'T. ME! SO YOU KNOW WHAT, DON'T TELL ME TO CALL PEOPLE WHEN THEY OBVIOUSLY DON'T HAVE TIME TO TALK! DON'T TELL ME TO DRIVE DOWN WHEN I'VE TOLD AT LEAST TWELVE OF MY FRIENDS THAT I DON'T HAVE A CAR.
PROBLEM SOLVED MY ASS!!!
School starts this week, and I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm not an East geek anymore. And I don't have my friends to back me up (physically) I doubt anybody reads this! It's just completely stupid for me to create a site that no one looks at. But I guess it makes me feel better you know. Like I have a purpose. But GOD I just miss having people to hang out with!
I was listening to the Nickel Creek Song 'When you come back down" and I realized it was telling me to just move forward. And I have to look to the future without mourning the past. Here are the Lyrics.
You got to leave me now, you got to go alone
You got to chase a dream, one that's all your own
Before it slips away
When you're flyin' high, take my heart along
I'll be the harmony to every lonely song
That you learn to play
When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down
I'll keep lookin' up, awaitin' your return
My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire
I'll be the other hand that always holds the line
Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire
And I'll be on the other end, To hear you when you call
Angel, you were born to fly, If you get too high
I'll catch you when you fall
I'll catch you when you fall
[Bridge:]
Your memory's the sunshine every new day brings
I know the sky is calling
Angel, let me help you with your wings
When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
Take every chance you dare,
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down
I had this revelation today. I don't think I'll ever be married or in love. I mean Apparently I'm too ugly for people to love me. But people are always like, "OH don't say that! I love you!" But it's a friends love, not...love love? Oh well. Hn.
I'm currently talking to my sister on the phone about her playing KH2. and trying to beat Cerberus in the underworld tournament. And she thinks she needs a tactical nuclear weapon to kill him. Because she can't beat him. I gave up after the first try, so I don't know how to help her.
These are two conversations between me and my friend Steve and me and my friend Sara!! LOL
<b>STEVE</B>
YaRiGaBrOw (9:28:18 PM): AH ITS U
LadyFate28 (9:28:59 PM): AH ITS U!
YaRiGaBrOw (9:29:00 PM): lol
YaRiGaBrOw (9:29:01 PM): sup?
LadyFate28 (9:29:16 PM): just finished a movie...
LadyFate28 (9:29:18 PM): u
YaRiGaBrOw (9:29:35 PM): just finished the covenant
LadyFate28 (9:29:54 PM): that is a good movie
YaRiGaBrOw (9:29:54 PM): it was
YaRiGaBrOw (9:29:57 PM): weotch!
LadyFate28 (9:30:03 PM): wow
YaRiGaBrOw (9:30:08 PM): its from the movie
LadyFate28 (9:30:26 PM): i know
LadyFate28 (9:31:26 PM): I'm SO freakin bored up here in NY
YaRiGaBrOw (9:31:32 PM): lol
YaRiGaBrOw (9:31:37 PM): same here in the poconos
LadyFate28 (9:31:54 PM): at least you get to SEE people...
LadyFate28 (9:32:04 PM): I just get to see my crazy aunt who should DIE YaRiGaBrOw (9:32:06 PM): lol
LadyFate28 (9:32:51 PM): she said I should foreget everyone down in PA...because they weren't good friends...I wanted to dropkick her ass
YaRiGaBrOw (9:33:09 PM): oh
LadyFate28 (9:35:19 PM): yep
YaRiGaBrOw (10:24:16 PM): omg my friend and i we want to reinact the matrix on mainstreet in stroudsburg
LadyFate28 (10:24:28 PM): OH wow...
YaRiGaBrOw (10:24:35 PM): ill wear a trenchcoat and shell wear a leather suit YaRiGaBrOw (10:24:47 PM): and well be on cellphones and ill direct her to a phone booth
YaRiGaBrOw (10:24:53 PM): and ill show up there b4 her
YaRiGaBrOw (10:24:58 PM): and well pretend to fight
LadyFate28 (10:25:23 PM): right now I am sad to know you
LadyFate28 (10:25:27 PM): lol
YaRiGaBrOw (10:25:26 PM): lol
YaRiGaBrOw (10:27:49 PM): i am watching matrix spoofs now
YaRiGaBrOw (10:27:54 PM): thats how bored i am
LadyFate28 (10:29:06 PM): wow...
YaRiGaBrOw (10:29:07 PM): lol
YaRiGaBrOw (10:29:13 PM): some of them r pretty good
LadyFate28 (10:29:33 PM): I've see nsome funny animated ones LadyFate28 (10:29:34 PM): LOL
YaRiGaBrOw (10:30:52 PM): lol
YaRiGaBrOw (10:31:02 PM): a day with trinity and neo
LadyFate28 (10:31:20 PM): oh god, that sounds kind of scary
YaRiGaBrOw (10:31:31 PM): lol
YaRiGaBrOw (10:31:42 PM): trinity making breakfast
YaRiGaBrOw (10:31:45 PM): neo comes down
YaRiGaBrOw (10:31:54 PM): and she gets scared
YaRiGaBrOw (10:31:57 PM): of a mouse
YaRiGaBrOw (10:31:59 PM): and goes eek
YaRiGaBrOw (10:32:06 PM): and he goes whoa
YaRiGaBrOw (10:32:25 PM): the end
LadyFate28 (10:33:14 PM): -_-; wow
YaRiGaBrOw (10:33:14 PM): i kno
LadyFate28 (10:33:30 PM): people need serious lives here
YaRiGaBrOw (10:33:33 PM): yes they do
YaRiGaBrOw (10:33:35 PM): so do we
YaRiGaBrOw (10:34:09 PM): big time
LadyFate28 (10:36:10 PM): so, we are the greatest people ever...we don't need lives...lives are for yellowbellies (I've been watching too much Fairly Odd Parents when I babysit)
YaRiGaBrOw (10:36:13 PM): lol
LadyFate28 (10:50:00 PM): brb
YaRiGaBrOw (10:50:01 PM): k
LadyFate28 (10:51:29 PM): back
YaRiGaBrOw (10:51:37 PM): kk
LadyFate28 (11:28:29 PM): bye
<b>SARA</b>
My sister Melly is such a user. I mean fucking seriously she only need us (her family) if she needs money or something. It pisses me off.
This is a piece of one of my and my sister's (beth) conversation.
LadyFate28 (12:33:47 PM): r u still gonna help mel w/ the storage unit Tauri911 (12:34:18 PM): she should know the answer so I don't even know why she's asking
LadyFate28 (12:34:38 PM): ??
LadyFate28 (12:36:08 PM): mel might be comin back through PA tonight Tauri911 (12:37:35 PM): and?
LadyFate28 (12:38:28 PM): IDk
Tauri911 (12:38:41 PM): I'm sorry but it seems like the only time she knows me at all is if she needs money
LadyFate28 (12:39:18 PM): yeah i know
Tauri911 (12:39:16 PM): its fucking bull shit
LadyFate28 (12:39:42 PM): yeah, I hate it
I have never really been known as being the most caring person in the world. But I cannot help but be angry at the way, Bush has been treating the American public. He wishes to take our RIGHTS away! Banning Gay Marriage will bring an uprise like he has never seen. But the worse of it is The no child left behind act. Soon the generation that has been subject to this act will graduate, me being one of them and they will rise against the government. Because we may be teenagers, but we are the smartest and the most tactful I have ever seen. More people in the last two years have gone to college, and Bush will take credit for it. But I know one thing. Most of my friends, around the country have had enough. And if we have to do, what we have to do. Then so be it, we shall bring hell.
Man I really want to see Equus I've been reading about it since I was about fifteen. When my sister was throwing a fit about the plot. But It's sounds pretty interesting if you ask me. Daniel Radcliffe now plays as Alan Strang. It seems sort of strange and enchanting at the same time! Maybe thats because I'm a little strange or just crazy. But who knows. I don't see why people were so aghast at the though of "Harry Potter" being naked on stage. But what that says to me is that he is very open to different roles. I have to be fine with just reading about it though.